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I'm sorry for being a bad blogger, i really am! It's just that i've been super busy with school and to be honest with you, i'm on a tiny break because my friend passed away last week and i needed space. i apologies again and i hope to be back as soon as i can! I love you guys! hope you understand where I'm coming from :( 

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Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Dreaming Wildly: Chapter 12

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Hinds point of view:

I was sleeping peacefully when I suddenly heard someone hiss my name, I ignored it and grabbed the ice cold blankets and covered my face.

Hiind get up” 3bdulla nagged. Knowing it was him made me jump out of bed.

What are you doing here” I rubbed my eyes “and what time is it

its 10 now get up I’m dead bored!

Wain fahood 3anik?

gaal 3inda sh’3l w byt25r

and meem?” I yawned I was still exhausted, overthinking kept me up last night.

I know when my sister isnt feeling umm, well, herself

What do you mean?” I answered, clueless.

shes depressed so she needs her sleep

Wait what?” crap how did he know?! My head spun out of frustration.

I’ve seen how she gets when she’s depressed remember abdulrahman?

Oh that, ok I’m coming in just 5 minutes I want to take a quick shower and change” I awkwardly looked down at my clothes. Baby pink shorts with white polka dots and a white tank with a Minnie Mouse print. I love my cartoons don’t blame me.

ok but don’t take too long

He left the room and as always my thought attacked me. Mostly about how I wish I had him in my life the way I want him to be.

After showering I wore my grey juicy training suit and let my wet hair down to let it naturally dry.

He was sitting on the black leather couch. He was so engrossed to what he was staring back at him phone that he didn’t even notice that I came.

Earth to 3dbulla

Oh ha” he seemed startled and immediately locked his Iphone which was quite suspicious. “Didn’t I tell you not to call me that” he looked at me with one eye brow raised.

Opps” I fluttered my eyelashes to cover it up but who was I kidding? It wasn’t going to work with him he just sees me as this kid. I let out a sigh and started walking to my room to grab my handbag.

3bdulla’s point of view:

She looked beautiful even with her wet hair and no makeup self. She was still the prettiest lady I have ever laid my eyes on. She fluttered her eyelashes and so did my heart. What would she see in me? I was just the crazy cousin to her. I was nothing. I kept staring at her and she suddenly started walking back to her room.

Waiin ray7a??” I got up quickly.

in6r I’ll just get my bag and my sunglasses so we go out for breakfast

As soon as she walked away I checked my phone one last time and saw her picture that I’ve been staring at for the last 30 minutes. A smile creped onto my lips. It was a picture of us as kids, she wore a light pink tutu dress and I had a suit on. It was shot at the perfect moment. I remember teasing her about some sweets I got and refused to give her until she gave me a peck onto my cheeks. I didn’t give her sweets at first I wanted her to kiss both cheeks but she ran to her mother declaring I wouldn’t give her any. I loved getting her frustrated even now. The way she reacted always made my day. It was simply entertaining to see her get mad, she looked adorable but who was I to say such a thing. I’m nothing to her.


Mohammed’s point of view:

Having Aisha here really helped me but that gap feeling is still there. It was like when 3bdulaziz just left. That empty feeling. I didn’t ever think I could get attached to a girl in such little time. Its been a month and it already feels like I’ve known her for a century. Maybe I’m just over reacting, this is probably just 3bdulaziz, may he rest in peace, I brushed my thoughts away and tried focusing on the English paper I had to give in tomorrow.

Somehow I ended up writing down my thoughts. I still refused to talk about them. It wasn’t like I didn’t want to, I just didn’t know how to.

as hard as it is to admit, but I miss you. Where are you now, messing around with me telling you’ll charm my wife into having her all for yourself because you kept saying I will be able to find the right one, telling me you’ll be the coolest uncle and take my kids wherever they wanted and do everything they wanted. You told me you’d be there for me, but where are you now? You’ve left a hole in my heart. A hole that will never be filled again. A hole of pain and misery, where my depression lies. Where are you when I need you most.

I tried hard to swallow the lump in my throat, I sealed in the tears but eventually they escaped. Flowing and feeling endless. My heart ached, I walked to my room almost collapsing because of lack of nutrition. I’ve barely eaten all week long. I open the wooden cabinet and get out his favorite football jersey. He had his nickname printed on the back “3zooz”. i held onto it and cried.

No one’s point of view:

M7AMMED!” Aisha squealed as she ran over to his side. He didn’t reply he just cried.

She hugged him tightly trying to calm him down while trying to contain her tears that were flowing uncontrollably.

“He’s in a better place please don’t do this to yourself” she managed to speak inn between her sobs. But she knew now he wouldn’t stop. He’s been fighting his tears for too long and now he was completely back to his depressed self.

Suddenly he stopped crying, his breathing stopped and Aisha felt it as she had her arms around him trying to comfort him. She pushed him back to see him and it was emotionless, his eyes were outlined with red and his cheeks were filled with tears.

M7ammed” she whispered as she shock his body but he didn’t make a sound neither did he move. “M7ammed don’t do this please wake up” she shock him a little more but it was the same, she searched for a heartbeat but there was nothing. She panicked but reacted quickly.

Aisha sprinted to her bag called for an ambulance and rushed to him. She remembers learning CPR at one of the courses she has attended and she starts. Trying to save her brother with tears running down her cheeks. She screamed for him to react but once again, nothing. 

Friday, November 1, 2013

Dreaming Wildly: Chapter 11


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Still running for what seemed hours but really a simple 20 minutes. My tears blurred my vision and just like that I bump through a hard figure, which causes me to fall back to the ground. I look up to see a man in his late 30’s probably but damn was he hot. I got all chocked up and just froze. He handed me out his hand to help me up.

I’m sorry, are you alright” he looked back at my entire body making sure I was alright. I quickly wiped my tears away and I’m 100% sure I look like a zombie walking this earth with all my eye makeup running down my face.

Yeah don’t worry, I’m sorry” I smiled and walked two steps away just to find that I had about 15 missed calls from hind and 12 from 3boud. I panicked; they’ll probably kill me for running off like that without a warning. I called back hind.

Heyy” I murmured through the phone as I shut my eyes tightly waiting for the lecture I was about to receive.

Are you alright!?” she replied rather quickly with worry, I expected a roar of “WHAT WAS THAT ALL ABOUT” but I’m guessing she saw mohammed and knew the reason behind my crazy reaction.

7bebti don’t worry al7yn bayeekm, I’ll just sort out my makeup and come

Ok babe we’re heading back to my house so come meet us up there

ok bye hanoda

Just as I was about to start walking I heard the stranger say something but it wasn’t very clear. It sounded like “5alejeya?” I turned to him.

umm eeh” I replied with a raised eye-brow and then realized this was completely normal which caused me to slightly laugh at myself. The green eyes, fair skin and light hair did make it hard for people to guess where I was from. Never has anyone ever got the right answer.

It’s just” he was at a loss of words.

I look different, I know don’t worry you’re not the first *giggle*” his face was priceless.

I’m 3mr by the way” he smiled, showing off his perfect pearly white teeth.

Maryam” I smiled back.

3ashat ilasami

3ashaat ayamk, I have to go nice to meet you” I waved and walked to the nearest café to clean up all the mess on my face. That was weird. Talking to a guy that handsome while having a face of a monster. Awkward, but its not like I’ll ever meet him again so whatever.
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Hind’s point of view:

Where is she” he looked at me with desperate eyes.

She’s alright don’t worry! I told her to come to my house

Il7imdallah wain kanat” he let out a huge breathe like he has been holding it in for a long time, I just stared back at him wishing he’d care for me like that but that was just plain stupidity. He doesn’t and will never think of me that way. I was just a cousin to him. A nobody. I made up a story about why she suddenly left.
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Mohammeds point of view:

After the rough week I had, nothing will have kept me going and draw a smile on my face like Aisha. She came to London as soon as I called her up a week ago and told her about the depression I’ve slipped through again. Remembering abdulaziz, my brother. Every ounce of my being missed him. 7 years of not having him by my side. Graduating high school was one of the last memories I had with him. He was too young. Just a 15 year old who died of a rare disease in the lungs. My tears flooded my eyes. Even after all these years it still killed me.

7mood are you ok?” Aisha put her hand on my shoulder trying to soothe out the pain. I wiped the tears quickly and smiled to her.

I am don’t worry

isn’t that the reason I’m here? I’m worried about you 7mood!

its just that you know” I tried explaining myself but I had nothing to say. It was hard to talk about my emotions. Her phone rang.

I’ve got to take this its mama

salmi 3alaiha

inshallah” she walked outside to talk to her.

Aisha is my aunts daughter. Her parents passed away when she was 6, in a car accident that only she survived. Since her mother was my mums sister she took her in and she became family. She was the sister my mother didn’t give birth to that’s why I called her. She knew Abdulaziz the most since they were the same age, just 3 months difference. She was also i5ty bl r’9a3a.

I sipped onto my coffee that was now ice cold since my thoughts occupied me for a little too long.
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Maryams point of view:
I got out of the café and started walking back to hinds house. I needed the walk to clear my mind that was already filled with conclusions that get crazier by the minute.

Maryam” he called out, breathing heavily. “Has anyone ever told you you’re a fast walker * laughs *

No just in a rush” what does he want now. He kept walking next to me. Excuse me but I need my privacy. I was already not in the mood.

look 3maar *sigh* can I be alone please I want to be alone” I stopped walking and forced a smile.

3mr *he corrected* and I’m just walking with you because you aren’t feeling well so I just wanted to check if you’re alright

I am, thank you now you can leave” I pointed to the opposite direction.

I’m only leaving when I know you get home safely! 3shan at6man w ‘9meri my2nbni” he smiled and started walking. “yalla *chuckle*

Fine but I’m not responsible for the injuries you’ll get as a gift from my brother *giggle*

Ouch she has a brother” he acted pained.

b3aaad! What exactly did you have in mind to do exactly? Charm me with some magic, flirt and then get my number” I raised my eyebrow. “not in a million years

you’re a tough one! I was just making conversation * smirk * I’m not that kind of guy, I would certainly not take advantage of a girl alone, I have sisters” he looked at me and his expression was hard to read like he was serious and a little pained that I would think like that of him.

I’m just messing with you

I know

we’re almost there by the way” I smiled.

After 5 minutes of walking silently we have finally arrived.

thank you 3mr

Yes! she got it right this time! Must be the handsome face! *smirk*

someone’s full of himself *giggle*

at least it made you laugh” he smiled. “it was nice accompanying you

It wasn’t bad after all” I smiled, I haven’t thought of mohammed for the longest time ever since the incident. This guy sure has his charms.

I waved and knocked the door to finding Arleen opening it with a wide smile.

Welcome miss Maryam” she greeted me with her thick philipino accent.

I got in and just as I was taking of my coat hind runs and hugs me tightly.

Don’t ever! EVER don’t that again!

Promise” I hugged her back tighter. “wheres 3boud

upstairs he doesn’t know you’re here

what does he know

that you forgot your wallet and you didn’t realize you also forgot your phone back at the apartment which explains why you didn’t answer

what will I ever do without you?

you’ll not live a second without me” she fluttered her long eyelashes.

th8a much?

e7iglyy” she smiled widely. “3BOUD SHE’S HERE”.

He sprinted down the stairs and slapped my right arm softly.

Ouch! What was that for!” I rubbed my arm.

for not taking your phone with you! Now come here! I was worried!!” he grabbed me into a bear hug.
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Hind’s point of view:

And there it was again. All the love and care he had. I was just standing there like a statue. How much I craved to be the one in between his arms.