Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Dreaming Wildly: Chapter 14


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Its been a few hours since I’ve been here, waiting. Its now 11 at night and I’m still sitting on the chair by his bed. 3boud and I had a slight hassle, arguing about why I’m here and he started his interrogations. It really wasn’t the time for it. After an hour of convincing that he was there for me when hind was in a coma, he said yes, of course after hind working her magic on him.

Aisha fell asleep on the couch and hind went to get me some clothes. I felt drained, my face were pale like all the color was sucked out of me and my eyes were puffy and had red streaks running through it because of all the crying. I regret not texting him, calling him or the least I could’ve done was listen to his side of the story.

Aisha didn’t have much to say, she was beyond exhausted from all the tears too. Every time she wanted to speak she would choke back on her tears and we’d end up crying together, clutching onto one another for security. I’ve just met her today and I feel so close to her, what happened to Mohammed has got me closed to her. I just hope he wakes up, the doctor said he needs to rest and that he’ll wake up super soon, hopefully.

I drag my chair closer to his bed, lay my head gently on the tip of his bed and intertwine my hands with his. My tears start rolling down my cheeks all over again.
                                                                     
7mood if you can hear my please just press on my hand” I whispered as I breathed out. Just as my tears were about to cause a flood to the hospital I feel him lightly pressing on my hand, gripping onto it.

I jump out my place and call out for 3asha immediately. “3WOOSH! He pressed he actually pressed” tears kept rolling down my cheeks, now they were tears of joy. I try to free my hand to go to the doctor and call him but m7ammed pulled off his oxygen support and whispered “You’re not going anywhere” and he gripped onto my hands with all the energy he had left which wasn’t much.

Hey Hey I’m here!” I quickly put back the oxygen support because he was turning paler, which I thought was impossible.

3asha sprung off the couch, jumped on mo7ammed and started kissing his cheeks continuously, it was cute since she was his sister but I started feeling weird, something I haven’t felt in so long that I actually forgot hot it felt, jealousy. Like fire was rising within me and my blood started boiling, like the time I first saw him with her.

7mood I’ll call 3boud ok?” I smiled to him and tried getting up. He pulled me to his bed. This guy was resting because of a cardiac arrest and he still has this much strength, all I can say is mashallah because it was scary how strong he was.

He removed the oxygen again and hissed “Laa2, 3wosh get me some water please” he coughed and it freaked me out so I ran out to get water, catching him off guard so he wasn’t able to hold me quick.

I ran back with the water after calling the nurse to inform the doctor but the doctor was in the OR preforming surgery.

I hurry back with the water and barge into the room. I pushed the door to hard which made it slam against the wall making a loud ‘BANG’. I stood in my place feeling slightly embarrassed and I looked down to my feet. Then I realized the water. “Ohh il maay” I rush to his side, he was already back to himself, he was chuckling and 3asha was laughing at my stupidity, she did try to hold back her laugh but she couldn’t hold it in.

Lhal draja 5ayfa 3lai?

Just drink * pushes the glass towards his face *” my cheeks felt hot, the room itself felt hot. It scared me how he could flip my mood like that, like it was a light switch, just one press and the room would light up.

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Hind’s point of view:

3bdulla and I were still in the living room, alone. Neither of us could sleep that night out of worry. It was very awkward at first. Sara slept over at her friends house again and my parents were out of the city for some meeting my dad had.

We were both silent for a while, a long while actually until he broke the silence.

Hanoda?” he called out softly.

hmm?” I looked back at him.

you want to go out to eat? I’m sure you’re starving and well my stomach is screaming for food” He chuckled.

Sure but what restaurant will be open now?

Il7ub” he winked. I just gave him a questioning glare. “McDonald’s!” his eyes glowed at the mention of McDonald’s, it was too funny I couldn’t help but laugh.

Ok yala I’ll just grab my coat l2na bard br3” he nodded and I got my satin peplum black long coat.

We started walking since there was one close by and we wanted to smell some fresh air and enjoy the weather for a little. The walk was also very silent but I liked it, having him as company was enough. I shivered when wind blew through us. He immediately put his hand around my neck and rubbed my arm trying to provide me with some warmth. My entire body felt like it was shock with lightning; Goosebumps rose through every inch of my body and my cheeks turned into unusual shades of red.

labsa jacket w b3d brdana!” he chuckled and side hugged me tightly. I just giggled lightly as my heart fluttered with happiness. His embrace made me feel at peace and it made me forget everything in this world. We got in and I didn’t want him to let go, he did but then intertwined his fingers with mine. My cheeks were R E D and nothing will cool them down now they’re too hot. He just looked at me and smirked, God that smirk kills me every time.

Shtbeen a6lb lch?” I was staring at his hazel eyes, just melting and daydreaming. “Hanoda?” he waved his hands in my face as he chuckled.

hmm oh sorry, mc chicken please

Spicy? Wla 3adi?

La 3adii

Ok, one normal mc chicken and two spicy mc chicken please

two? Mashallah ana wa7d w ma5al9a” I giggled.

it’s the krsha ybi yakl” he laughed, his laugh. Enough said.

Ay krsha” I laughed, “you’ve got a six pack w tgool krsha?” how did that slip out now! He’ll think I stare at him 24/7! Which I do! But he cant know! I covered my mouth immediately, mentally.

How do you know that?” he smirked.

I stuttered not knowing what to make up now, “What oh yeah mimi showed me a picture of when you guys went to the umm” I didn’t know what to say, my tongue tied into notes and they were very tight.

Thailand” he helped me out, but his smirk never left and I think he winked which made me swallow the lump of humiliation stuck in my throat.

Yeah that” I awkwardly giggled to cover it all up and inside all I though was ‘Hind You stupid stupid idiot cant you just keep that mouth of yours shut for once why did you do that? Why? Now he’ll think you’re some kid stalking his every detail! Stupid just stupid hind had to talk!’

Tra 3adi shfeech don’t stress it” he smiled which made my the train of thoughts in my head have a huge break before crashing. He kept staring back into my eyes, we were having the moment again, noo, its just my mind playing tricks on me!

Ma’am, sir, the food is ready” the lady broke the moment we had, part of me didn’t want her to break it, a huge part of me.

after you” he let go of my hand to carry the tray and my heart sunk. I walked to an empty table.

We sat down started eating and he was already on his second burger when I? was still half way through mine.

and I repeat, Mashallah” he laughed hard.

You girls don’t know how to really eat

Heyy!

Asfeen asfeen la intw ilbanat t3rfoon a7na ily man3arf” he chuckled then stuffed a few pieces of fries in his mouth.

You barely touched your fries!” he got two pieced, dipped them into the ketchup and mouthed me to open my mouth. “Ift7i yala

3boood” I said shyly.

Yala 6yarat baba tbi td5al” I laughed hard now I was being treated like his baby.

Fine” I giggled and opened my mouth. He fed me the fries.

Feeh ketchup” he pointed to his lip of the position of where it was. I slightly panicked.

Waain?

Dgega” he got a tissue and wiped it for me “There you go” He smiled and again, my cheeks turned into a darker shade of red.

His phone suddenly rang, it was almost 1 Am who would call him, I felt my blood slightly boil with jealousy, yes jealousy.

Its 3woosh dgega” B3d ‘3woosh’ edal3ha? Calm down hind! I kept repeating in my head.

alo hala… eeh shfeekm 9ar shai? 7mood feh shai? Mimi?.... shno?!... 36eni akalma!...shno my9eer agolich abi aklm 7mood!....Fine! shlounha mimi?.... eeh zain take care of her for me ok…. Ok yala bye take care” and he closed the line I was just looking at him trying to find answers.

Sh9ar? M7ammed gam?

eeh il7imdallah, he’s stable now bs mygdar ytkalam w galat inroo7lhm bkra a7san

Il7imdallah!” I exhaled out of relief.

After I finally finished eating, of course 3bood finished ages ago. We walked back home. When we got home, fahad was fast asleep on the couch, he probably had a long day and he knew nothing about what happened to m7ammed, poor fhood. I ran to my room and got extra blankets for him. I covered him up and gave him a peck on his cheeks. It was an only brother thing, we always took care of each other.

3bood just looked at me doing all that with his arms crossed and a smile drawn to his lips.

You know, that was one of the cutest things I’ve seen in a while and I don’t find many things cute

Thank you? i guess” I fluttered my eye lashes at him.

Don’t do that please” he said with a little seductively tone to it.

Do what?

Your eyes, just don’t

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3bdullah’s point of view:

when she simply flutters her eye lashes my heart does to and it makes me want to kiss her, right there, right at that very moment.

Yala you’ve got to rest we’ve been up early today and it’s getting late” she nodded. I put my hands on her shoulders from the back and gently pushed her to her room. She kept giggling which was irresistibly adorable.

Goodnight 3bood” she smiled before walking into her room.

Goodnight 7yati” i whispered back so ever softly so she wouldn’t hear me. How I wished that one day I will be able to say these words to her and take her into my arms, to make her mine.
                   

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Dreaming Wildly: Chapter 13




Abdullah’s point of view:

Today couldn’t get any better, we went out to breakfast than walked around the park until the sun started to set. It was simple, yet perfect. We both sat on the grass and stared at the sky that was now a mixture of orange, yellow and a dash of pink lines running through it. I felt her lean onto me and a shock of spark lit through my body. I felt her gently relaxing her head onto my shoulder. I slowly turned and looked through her deep chocolate brown eyes. They had a huge affect on me, just staring at them all day would be perfect and I wouldn’t mind. I was under her spell.

Just as I was no longer able to contain myself and lean in to kiss her, my phone rang and ruined the moment. I was immediately annoyed and let out a puff and got it out.

Who is it?” hind replied softly still stuck in the moment, wait im just imagining im sure shes just in shock, she cant know I love her because it’ll ruin what we have. She’ll hate me!

wait that’s weird

What is?” she sat up.

Its 3asha

And who may that be?” I could swear I saw flames light up in her eyes but again I’m sure I’m just hallucinating.

 M7ammed’s sister, Give me a minute

Wait he has a…” just as she was about to continue I picked up.

Hey 3asha, what’s up?

3bdullah please come to Cromwell hospital” she breathed out and cried harder. “I didn’t know who else to call” she kept crying and I panicked.

Why what’s wrong? I’ll be there in less than 15 minutes! calm down and breathe tell me whats happened” i replied hastily.

It’s 7mood please come quick I don’t know what to do here

I’m on the way don’t worry” hind just stared at me filled with curiosity and questions.

Thank you” and she shut the phone before I could say anything.

whats wrong and where are we going and who was that??” she exploded with questions out of frustration.

7mood is in Cromwell Hospital, you go to mimi and I’ll go to them!

Im coming with you

laa hindo rou7i ilbait irta7ii bagool 7g fahood eyiy

Fine!

We then both went our separate ways. She was heading back home and I was going to the hospital. I walked back with a heavy heart not knowing what has happened to my best friend..

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Maryam’s point of view:

Waking up with a major headache was one of the worst ways of waking up. I walk to the kitchen to look for the medicine cupboard. After swallowing two panadols I make some coffee and drag myself to the living room. Hind was nowhere to be found, no one was home anyways.

Just as I was about to sit I hear someone sprint up the deck of stairs. Hind popped up in front of me with a helpless expression, her eyes were filled with tears and it made me panic in a matter of seconds. She just stood there next to the tip of stairs and stared back intensely. “M7amed” a mere whisper escaped her lips but it was loud and clear to me.

I no longer had any control and the pink mug I once held was now shattered to pieces. My mind was attacking me with the craziest conclusions and it hurt, it hurt even more than it did earlier. I fell to the ground and felt the hot tears trickle down my cold cheeks. Hind ran by my side and held onto me.

What happened” I managed to say.

All I know is he’s in the hospital and 3boud is probably there by now, calm down he’ll be alright inshallah” she caressed my back and tried to wipe my tears that kept falling heavily.

I got up headed to hind’s room and opened her closet, got out her grey sweatpants and an enormous hoddie. Hind just panicked. “What are you doing?” “Why are you changing” “Maryam!!” she squealed. I ignored her, changed and grabbed my phone. Looked back at her and her eyes were filled with pity and sadness. “Hind which hospital” I said sternly trying to contain the river of tears that were a second away from escaping again.

Cromwell” she whispered. I just got out and darted down the stairs. “MEME” hind yelled out my name but I ignored. “MEME!” she yelled once more with a stern voice. “What” I replied coldly “You’re not stopping me, I’m going inshallah 7bebta hnak, uma, ubooh, I don’t care im going!” I broke down into tears again. She took me into her arms and held me into a hug for 10 minutes while I let it all out.

Breathe maryoom just breathe please” she begged. After taking several long breathes I calm down again. “yalla please lets just go now” I breathed out.

We grabbed our coats and took a cab because I was no longer able to walk straight.

Skipping to the hospital. We walked to the reception area and hind asked the receptionist about m7ammed and what room he was in. We walked towards the elevator and pressed the level number. Goosebumps formed through my entire body as I shivered with fear. The smell of the hospital made me think of death and it terrified me. As soon as the elevator doors slid open I saw the same girl with the pixie hair cut across the hall. He back was leaned to the wall and she wept silently.

I didn’t know her but her image broke my heart, I wasn’t the only one affected by this. I saw 3boud talking to a doctor, I immediately ran to him and called out his name.

Meme?” he looked at me with his eyes wide open, “Why did you come?” just before I could continue he snapped back at hind, “Didn’t I tell you to go and rest” he said through gritted teeth. Hind simply stared back at the ground not making a sound. “I’ll deal with you guys later I need to speak to the doctor now”. Both hind and I just nodded. “Sorry doctor you were saying” he apologized and they continued discussing m7ammeds matter.

I felt a pair of hands hold onto my arms, I turned to find the girl. Her eyes were now red and puffy like she has cried the entire Nile River. “You’re The Maryam aren’t you?” I just stared back at her with confusion. “You look so much prettier than how he described you” a faint smile was drawn onto her plumped lips.

All I could say was “I'm Sorry but do I know you?”.

I’m aisha” she put her hand out for a handshake, “M7med’s sister”.

I felt like a few of the daggers that were pierced through my heart were now removed; yet a few were still untouched.

But he didn’t talk to me about any of his siblings and I don’t remember him having any” I looked at her with frustration and questions filled my head. Hind was just staring at both of us, too engrossed to speak.

He’s really my cousin but both my parents passed away when I was young and so they adopted me but I remember you, you were always at our house

My head was now going to explode, this was too much to take in. first I think she’s his lover but now I know she’s his sister and her story is tragic which makes me feel worse about making ridiculous conclusions.

I’m so sorry for your loss” I held her hand and lightly pressed on it, I felt terrible, completely and utterly terrible.

What’s important now is 7moud” she looked down and her eyes flooded with tears once again. I couldn’t help but hug her tightly. After the hug we both needed I turn around to 3bouds stern voice talking to hind.

Didn’t I tell you not to come here?” I could see hind’s eyes filling with tears. Then he suddenly took her into his arms and hugged her tightly.

 The rest was just a blur after I turned to the rooms and saw him laying there with wires attached to him. I felt 3asha’s grip on my arm getting tighter to hold me for support because at that moment I felt like I was seconds away from crashing down. I kept repeating in my head ‘this cant be happening, this is all just a bad dream’.


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Sunday, November 24, 2013

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I'm sorry for being a bad blogger, i really am! It's just that i've been super busy with school and to be honest with you, i'm on a tiny break because my friend passed away last week and i needed space. i apologies again and i hope to be back as soon as i can! I love you guys! hope you understand where I'm coming from :( 

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Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Dreaming Wildly: Chapter 12

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Hinds point of view:

I was sleeping peacefully when I suddenly heard someone hiss my name, I ignored it and grabbed the ice cold blankets and covered my face.

Hiind get up” 3bdulla nagged. Knowing it was him made me jump out of bed.

What are you doing here” I rubbed my eyes “and what time is it

its 10 now get up I’m dead bored!

Wain fahood 3anik?

gaal 3inda sh’3l w byt25r

and meem?” I yawned I was still exhausted, overthinking kept me up last night.

I know when my sister isnt feeling umm, well, herself

What do you mean?” I answered, clueless.

shes depressed so she needs her sleep

Wait what?” crap how did he know?! My head spun out of frustration.

I’ve seen how she gets when she’s depressed remember abdulrahman?

Oh that, ok I’m coming in just 5 minutes I want to take a quick shower and change” I awkwardly looked down at my clothes. Baby pink shorts with white polka dots and a white tank with a Minnie Mouse print. I love my cartoons don’t blame me.

ok but don’t take too long

He left the room and as always my thought attacked me. Mostly about how I wish I had him in my life the way I want him to be.

After showering I wore my grey juicy training suit and let my wet hair down to let it naturally dry.

He was sitting on the black leather couch. He was so engrossed to what he was staring back at him phone that he didn’t even notice that I came.

Earth to 3dbulla

Oh ha” he seemed startled and immediately locked his Iphone which was quite suspicious. “Didn’t I tell you not to call me that” he looked at me with one eye brow raised.

Opps” I fluttered my eyelashes to cover it up but who was I kidding? It wasn’t going to work with him he just sees me as this kid. I let out a sigh and started walking to my room to grab my handbag.

3bdulla’s point of view:

She looked beautiful even with her wet hair and no makeup self. She was still the prettiest lady I have ever laid my eyes on. She fluttered her eyelashes and so did my heart. What would she see in me? I was just the crazy cousin to her. I was nothing. I kept staring at her and she suddenly started walking back to her room.

Waiin ray7a??” I got up quickly.

in6r I’ll just get my bag and my sunglasses so we go out for breakfast

As soon as she walked away I checked my phone one last time and saw her picture that I’ve been staring at for the last 30 minutes. A smile creped onto my lips. It was a picture of us as kids, she wore a light pink tutu dress and I had a suit on. It was shot at the perfect moment. I remember teasing her about some sweets I got and refused to give her until she gave me a peck onto my cheeks. I didn’t give her sweets at first I wanted her to kiss both cheeks but she ran to her mother declaring I wouldn’t give her any. I loved getting her frustrated even now. The way she reacted always made my day. It was simply entertaining to see her get mad, she looked adorable but who was I to say such a thing. I’m nothing to her.


Mohammed’s point of view:

Having Aisha here really helped me but that gap feeling is still there. It was like when 3bdulaziz just left. That empty feeling. I didn’t ever think I could get attached to a girl in such little time. Its been a month and it already feels like I’ve known her for a century. Maybe I’m just over reacting, this is probably just 3bdulaziz, may he rest in peace, I brushed my thoughts away and tried focusing on the English paper I had to give in tomorrow.

Somehow I ended up writing down my thoughts. I still refused to talk about them. It wasn’t like I didn’t want to, I just didn’t know how to.

as hard as it is to admit, but I miss you. Where are you now, messing around with me telling you’ll charm my wife into having her all for yourself because you kept saying I will be able to find the right one, telling me you’ll be the coolest uncle and take my kids wherever they wanted and do everything they wanted. You told me you’d be there for me, but where are you now? You’ve left a hole in my heart. A hole that will never be filled again. A hole of pain and misery, where my depression lies. Where are you when I need you most.

I tried hard to swallow the lump in my throat, I sealed in the tears but eventually they escaped. Flowing and feeling endless. My heart ached, I walked to my room almost collapsing because of lack of nutrition. I’ve barely eaten all week long. I open the wooden cabinet and get out his favorite football jersey. He had his nickname printed on the back “3zooz”. i held onto it and cried.

No one’s point of view:

M7AMMED!” Aisha squealed as she ran over to his side. He didn’t reply he just cried.

She hugged him tightly trying to calm him down while trying to contain her tears that were flowing uncontrollably.

“He’s in a better place please don’t do this to yourself” she managed to speak inn between her sobs. But she knew now he wouldn’t stop. He’s been fighting his tears for too long and now he was completely back to his depressed self.

Suddenly he stopped crying, his breathing stopped and Aisha felt it as she had her arms around him trying to comfort him. She pushed him back to see him and it was emotionless, his eyes were outlined with red and his cheeks were filled with tears.

M7ammed” she whispered as she shock his body but he didn’t make a sound neither did he move. “M7ammed don’t do this please wake up” she shock him a little more but it was the same, she searched for a heartbeat but there was nothing. She panicked but reacted quickly.

Aisha sprinted to her bag called for an ambulance and rushed to him. She remembers learning CPR at one of the courses she has attended and she starts. Trying to save her brother with tears running down her cheeks. She screamed for him to react but once again, nothing.